What are we willing to do to be thought of as pretty or beautiful? Many of us believe so deeply that if we were the textbook definition of beautiful some person will finally love us the way we deserve to be loved. They would fall in love each time they look at us. They will fear losing us and worship the ground that we walk on daily. I think about the hardships I’ve endured in love and the trauma and pain that was inflicted on me by people who didn’t even find me the least bit attractive. I was a zero to them, an empty holding place waiting for the right woman to come take their rightful place and then I would be discarded. I have been audaciously accused of having low self-esteem or low self-image. This is an untruth. I truly believe that we live in a world where people are so shallow that my beauty will never be seen or appreciated. Many people are obsessed with fakeness, and many don’t even know it. The media portrayal of beauty is airbrushed and photoshopped to the highest of heavens. Fabricated beauty is a force-fed high that is infused into the minds of people who will chase it to the ends of the earth (as round as it may be). Sometimes it seems as if the natural arrangement of the human anatomy is no longer the acceptable example of what should attract us. So, lets for a minute look at what happens when we go along with the process and have our bodies altered to fit the cookie cutter idea of beauty. What happens then to the soul of those lucky persons who can acquire the perfect body or look? Do they remain humble or kind? Do they remember how to react or interact with their friends and family? The answer is not always. As a matter of fact, many people don’t know how they fit into their lives anymore. They are new to all the attention, new to the growing attractions of others to them, and sometimes they convince themselves that their peers and family members are jealous of the changes that they are going through. They feel envied for their newfound pretty privilege. How useful is a new lovely body when new wickedness lies within?