How much of the time are you “running on empty”, just struggling to get through the demands of the day without considering your true feelings.

The inner self is about what can’t be seen: feelings, intuition, values, beliefs, personality, thoughts, emotions, fantasies, spirituality, desire, and purpose. In contrast, there is the outer self which is what can be seen and what we present to the world. It generally concerns with material things such as hair or clothes as well as the personas you portray. We usually try to curate our outer self to reflect the best.

Conflict arises when your outer self becomes a habitual pattern at the expense of your true feelings. This conflict often occurs due to spending too little time considering your inner self.

Lately I feel like I have been “running on empty”.

When I imagine my future, all i see is gray. Yet I am working hard and sacrificing sleep in order to get through the demand and responsibility of passing college. When I took the moment to attempt to balance my outer and inner self, I realized I wasn’t sure how I felt about the career path I chose but I also had no desire to figure out what I wanted to change. I also don’t quite feel like the person I present to the world is me.

Trying to find the balance between your outer and inner self can be difficult, but it is important to stay aligned to your inner self as much as your success on the outside. An imbalance can cause stress, feeling of emptiness on the inside, and damage.

If you also feel like you are “running on empty”, take the time to slow down, focus on the moment, and listen to your thoughts as you go about your day. Only you will know what specific changes might help to align you with your true inner self.

I hated crying since I was little, especially in front of people. I’ve created a mental block that mostly prevents me from crying in front of people, but it never applies to my Dad. When I was little, my Dad told me he believed that everyone had a tear pocket that is unique to their own with the purpose to carry your tears. When the pocket gets too heavy, its okay and necessary to empty it out. When its overfilled, it can become a ponderous burden or burst. A burst could be related to a time when you’ve been holding back your tears and then the tiniest thing caused you to have a full uncontrollable break down.

Remember that crying is totally normal, and everyone does it. It is physically and mentally important/necessary to not hold back your tears. Do you know why crying makes you feel better?

When you cry, your body releases some of the tightened muscles and heightened tension. Crying activates the parasympathetic nervous system and restores the body to a state of balance. In your brain, it releases endorphins, feel-good chemicals that helps ease both physical and emotional pain.

Be gentle on yourself when you cry.

Revenge Bedtime Procrastination is a phenomenon in which people put off going to sleep to engage in activities that they don’t have time for during the day. Essentially, people who do not have much control over their day time life would refuse to sleep early in order to regain some sense of freedom during late night hours.

I most definitely engage in revenge bedtime procrastination.

The late hours are my precious hours. It’s quiet, peaceful, nobody is calling for me, my responsibilities are asleep, and I can do whatever I want and feel however I want. I spend many nights/early mornings watching films, binging shows, crocheting, and on social media. During these hours, I didn’t have to be a student, a part-time employee, or a family member. I believed the control and freedom I felt was completely worth the expense of sleep. But once the day hit, my late hour activities did not help me endure my lack of sleep.

“Revenge” is the crucial descriptor that differentiates this phenomenon. Not all procrastinations of going to bed refer to this circumstance. Some procrastinations can be staying up late partying with friends. In this sense, you’re making a good deal with yourself where the fun becomes worth the suffering you endure later. But revenge procrastination doesn’t compensate for the exhaustion and sleep deprivation. It might feel like soothing yourself, but you’re actually “punishing” yourself.

Be aware, revenge bedtime procrastination as a regular habit can hurt your ability to function during the days and effect your physical/mental health over time. The potential negative effects include anxiety, depression, difficulty concentrating, high blood pressure, weakened immunity, weight gain, and/or worse memory.

It is important for your body and mentality to prioritize your sleep. Assess your schedules, schedule time for yourself, and/or create a nighttime routine.

” The body stores all of your emotions and will usually showcase them center stage without your consent.”

“The mind will play tricks, but the way you feel in your heart, in your guts, is the truth”

The body never lies. For me, this statement resonates.

When I’m angry, I start crying even though I don’t want to. I base most of my decisions emotionally rather than logically. Weirdly, I also have a strong trust for my gut instincts.

This statement also resonates to me for perceiving others.

I’ve always had the sensitivity to feel other people’s energy. Their expression and attitude can be perceived as one thing, but somehow I always felt their true energy that radiated from their body. I usually ignored it and corrected myself because I thought I was judging people based on their exterior. Although I still don’t believe I have an ability, I am impressed with the fact my perceptions were never wrong.

My perceptions are exceptionally accurate with people I know very well. For instance, my twin sister. I can always read her emotions well without her telling me and predict many of her romantic partners. I always know when she is not okay, despite her telling me she was fine. I believed this was because of my close bond with her. And the fact we were twins made me think it was just the connection. My sister whom has spiritual beliefs, believes that I feel Auras (another topic I’d be interested to blog about). Our twin bond definitely plays a key influence but I started to question this “ability” when others began to view it as a talent.

This “ability” is where the statement, “The body never lies” comes to effect.

The belief that my perceptions are judgments of character, I commonly try to ignore the thoughts that spark in my mind. I try to control it from influencing my relationships with others. But my body never lies. When I come across people with very bright and white energy, my body gravitates towards them. It doesn’t take me long to become comfortable and create an immediate trust in them. Whereas when I come across a dark and foggy energy, my body becomes stiff. Not all dark and heavy energy feels dangerous, it can also be perceived as sadness. This is when the body never lies for others. My friends, family, and crazily even strangers can never lie to me when they’re not okay. Not only can I sense it, they know I sense it.

I don’t believe this to be an ability or talent. But I do believe bodies to be more than just our biological/physiological structure. Bodies carry the emotions we feel and the energy we possess. The body literally holds our organs that help us feel. The body never lies.