About two months ago I took a large step, which I never thought that I would. I finally went to my doctor’s office and asked to be prescribed medication for depression. Depression is something that I have dealt with for a long time but I have also been very against taking medication to try and help with it. Partly because being on a medication for it would make it more real and not as easy to ignore and partly because I work in a pharmacy and I see the side effects that people have to deal with and how long and how many trial and errors can happen before they find the right medication. For the past couple years, I have gone back and forth trying to decide if I should go on medication or not. When I would have good days, or even weeks I would think no way I need medication I’m fine but then the bad days and weeks would hit and I would be stuck in bed wishing that I had something to help me because I no longer can do it on my own. Finally, after discussing it with my therapist and my pharmacist I decided to take the leap and get prescribed medication. So far it has been helpful and I notice that I do not feel so down all of the time which is nice. It is not a huge change, and I’m not fully convinced that my feeling better is not just a placebo effect but I am glad that I was able to finally take this chance and really start working towards bettering myself and not just suffering through to the next day.
Unruly Bodies 
I’m happy you decided to take that step and explore ways to manage your depression. Even just talking to a therapist can be difficult, we don’t really emphasize seeking help in this country so it takes courage to do that. Even if the medications turn out not to be for you I hope you continue to find ways to handle your depression.
I am so happy that you are feeling better and I applaud you for having the courage to seek help in making yourself feel better. I’ve battled with depression for years too. Like you have, I often find myself wanting to hibernate in bed forever, lacking the motivation or happiness to do anything besides sleep. It is a real struggle and no one should have to feel so down. Medication is just one avenue of feeling better, and often the most successful one. I am glad you found a medication that works for you. I also do yoga to help clear my mind and raise my spirits. I find it to be very therapeutic and helpful. So that is also something you could try if you don’t practice it already. Good luck with everything!
I have had a very similar experience with depression/anxiety and have just started medication myself! I have found it to be very beneficial so far and I hope the same goes for you. Talking about it is very important and it helps me assess the abilities of the medication. Also, determining whether my lifted mood is a result of circumstancial changes, placebo effect, or medication has made it difficult to determine the medications success, but I’m just happy and I’m not going to spend too much time thinking about why. I wish you luck on your journey and feel free to reach out to me if you have any questions about my experience or yours.