Each day we walk through life and see all these different people. I love to people watch. I find it enjoyable to sit and walk people interact and wonder what’s going on in their heads as they go about their every day life. Sometimes you see people do funny things and you have no explanation as to why they may be doing it. Sometimes they may be build a little different in the mind than you are and you might not be able to see it at first, doesn’t mean it isn’t there.

I struggle with anxiety everyday but if I’m being honest you would probably never notice. If someone was watching me go through my every day life, they would probably see someone who looks confident about everything they do, but in reality, it is quite the opposite. I wake up every morning with my heart rate elevated and the feeling that something just isn’t quite right. As I go on with my day I question everything I do, wondering if its right or wrong. I am horrified to get called on class, be the first one to present or even speak when it comes to a subject I don’t know too much about. Even when I’m in my element at soccer practice, my heart rate is through the roof when it comes to being the next person up in line or having to respond to a question my coach asks. When all these moments in my life happen, I get through them, but not without internal struggle. Before each moment happens and it’s my turn to go, my heart starts to race and my mind starts to wonder. What if I mess up? What if I say the wrong thing? Should I do this instead? These are just a few of the worries that shoot through my mind. Constantly wondering if I’m going to make it through the duration of the day.

This is something that so many people deal with, but so few people would know. We only see what is on the outside, and naturally as humans when someone looks fine on the outside, we presume they are just fine on the inside as well. You might be reading this thinking you are experiencing the same thing, and I just want you to know that you are seen are you are heard. Every one experiences this life differently, and that is perfectly okay.