I honestly am exhausted. I work 6 days a week and 3 of those days I work two jobs, the other 3 I only work 1 but its only because I go to classes on those days. No one really talks about the sacrifices that need to be made if you don’t have your tuition covered or your parents can’t help you with it. Honestly I feel like half the time my body and brain want to give up on me. I never truly get a break and im constantly in front of a computer so my eyes hurt or my head hurts. Brain fog is real, especially because I’m always on the go. Sometimes I even have to sacrifice sleep because there’s just not enough time in the day. At night is when I have to focus on homework so when exactly does my body and mind have time to rest? I think im experiencing burnout. Today I actually read a tweet that said, “there’s no real way to rest away burnout, something in your daily life or schedule has to change.” and I think they’re right because no matter how much sleep I could possibly get, im still exhausted mentally. I think about what exactly I could do to change my day to day so that I feel less tired but I need both jobs to pay off the rest of my tuition that loans and scholarships didn’t cover, as well as having to pay for whatever other bills or expenses I have.
I don’t know, its just what I have to do right? That’s just life right? I don’t even want to sound like im complaining because I know there’s people out their that have less or don’t even have the opportunity to go to school, let alone two jobs. I’m grateful, I really am but im just tired. But my parents raised me to be strong, resilient, and to never give up. They came from a whole different country with nothing and were able to make a beautiful life for us. I never lacked any real necessities growing up, had a roof over my head, food in my belly, clothes on my body. So I’m doing this so one day I can create a beautiful life for myself and bring them along with me. So they don’t have to work anymore, because if im tired then I know they’re exhausted. I guess what im saying is, I’m praying that this is all worth it in the end.
I’m in a somewhat similar situation, where I’m working over 40 hours each week and am full-time at school. My family has always been impoverished, so even though they’re able to help out with some bills, I don’t have the ability to stop working (and living at home is simply not an option). Burnout is my everyday, just as I’m sure it is yours.
I’m all too aware that taking advice from someone in a better situation than your own is often more painful than it is helpful, but the person on Twitter is right (rare Twitter W honestly). I had to make the difficult decision to drop a class this semester in order to have time to sleep, which will give me energy and time to do homework, and also the will to keep going. Having to battle myself and overcome the sunken cost fallacy has taken a long time, but I’ve fallen prey to my own overambitions enough times that I know I need to get out before I’m completely pulled underwater. My health is worth more. So is yours.
I try and take it one day at a time. If I can get through today, maybe I can get through tomorrow, and maybe then I can get through the week, the month, the semester. It’s hard to slow down, because it feels like that beautiful life is right around the corner, but you can’t get there if you overwork yourself so hard your gears stop turning.
I hope you’re able to carve out time for yourself, even if it’s just a 20 minute nap between classes. You’re worth the time it takes to be comfortable.
I am also exhausted, working almost every day, doing homework every day, just in general feeling the need to be great is exhausting. I feel like I don’t want to complain for the opposite reason you stated, I know there are people doing and accomplishing so much more than I ever will and that makes me feel lackluster for complaining about what seems/feels like the bare minimum. Being tired from other’s expectations is a weird middle ground, I am tired from work but also from thinking that I’m not doing enough work.
Take a moment to celebrate your accomplishments and acknowledge the effort you’re putting in. It’s also crucial to find small moments of respite amidst the chaos. Whether it’s a short walk, a few minutes of meditation, or a hobby you enjoy, these small breaks can contribute to your overall well-being and help in managing the stress.
Keep your aspirations in focus, but also be kind to yourself in the process. You’re not alone in this struggle, and there are resources and communities that may offer support. Remember, your health and happiness matter just as much as your dedication to your goals.
I completely feel you, working almost everyday is very draining and I feel like I have been burnt out for years. I don’t have time to relax or focus on a different hobby because theres a need for money, whether is tuition or bills. Even in the summer I am working crazy hours to afford the upcoming semester. This has taken a toll on my body and my mental wellbeing. I am trying to find a balance but I think it will be a few years till I find it.