I write this on my phone at 10:03 pm I was so excited to do this weeks assignment for nothing more than to share a anecdote about my coming out or to share some sappy poem that I think is rather deep and meaningful (it isn’t but like i can pretend) while others are counting the number of periods i didn’t include but unfortunately I can’t not because i lack the time i’m a quick thinker and could cobble something decent together and for sure not lack material (it’s funny how much there would be to use) but because my mind won’t let me it won’t let me do more than just talking into a void a void with like 9-10 people also talking into it but a void all the same so here it is me unfiltered and slightly tired and really overworked It’s all very topical i guess my last post for unruly bodies sabotaged by my unruly body In this class we learn about bodies in so many different ways wether they are queer bodies pregnant bodies or just all in all over worked bodies and in that i’ve found that we as people have so many things that we put ourselves through to make life easier when in all honesty all it does is make life more varied we talk about what we need and how it will fix things for us like who hasn’t thought that right it’s natural to want more for yourself but at the cost of our own bodies we work to hard or put ourselves through the ringer to conform right like the new year new me people you know the ones with the new year glasses that has the year on them and the noise makes and hats these people say one Dec 31st they will listen to their bodies more eat only when your hungry or understanding when you need time off to relax these same people on jan 1st will be peeling themselves off a carpet if theyre lucky hungover and craving cheese at 7:20 in the morning will they follow that impulse no because they have a shift in 40 min and bills to pay now i’m not shaming them more power to them to have that sorta turn around what i’m saying is your body is complex and the logically we couldn’t possibly give it everything it wants when it wants it but we can do our best to do better for ourselves and our unruly bodies anyways thanks for listening to me ramble on