Phenomenology: I Am Me

When I was a kid, sometimes I use to just sit there and feel myself. Not physically put my hands on myself but I would sit and think, “I am a person who is alive right now in this present moment. This is not a dream or some sort of video game but I am sitting here as a physical being. Breathing, thinking, sitting down etc.” I am glad that I finally have been introduced to a proper name for that stream of consciousness I acquainted myself with. I felt okay with being just me. I realized that I stopped this practice because I started to feel less like me and got consumed with the different roles I fit into and play in different circles of society. In some I am a child, some I’m an adult, some I’m a student, some I’m gay. Some I am a villain, some I’m a hero, some I’m gay, some I’m a black woman. As I got older I felt like there were so many labels that were plastered on me that I did not feel like a person rather a characteristic. I miss when I could just exist in my own bubble as my own entity without feeling a part of someone else’s.

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  1. I appreciate you sharing this and I completely agree with you. When we label each other without actually getting to know one other or just by simply having a conversation can create a tense situation. Society, religion and tradition has taught same sex relationships and changing genders is immoral. The Stanford Encyclopedia’s definition of phenomenology is “the study of structures of consciousness as experienced from the first person point of view” It could be that people are looking at this topic from various experiences that they encountered with this particular group. For instance, if someone was in a same sex relationship after years of being in a heterosexual relationship and something horrible happened, this individual perception has already shaped this person’s viewpoint, which is now negative towards this group. I’ve always thought that basing one’s decision off of personal feelings is a setup for failure to have empathy and understand. So, my question is “If your child, whom you love, came to you about being in a same sex relationship and/or transitioning, would you still use your personal experiences to make your decision whether to accept them or not?

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