tw: ED
Ever since I was young, I was an obese kid and trust me I was reminded of it everytime. Till this day I remember stepping on the scale in 5th grade in front of my PE teacher and seeing that I weighed over 100 pounds. I was so embarrassed of this weight as I saw other girls giggling and asking each other what they weighed. I was devastated as a 5th grader that I weighed that much even though I considered myself active. I used to play kickball, tag, run around the playground, but I never looked like the other 5th graders. So, this is where my unhealthy obsession with diets started. When I went into 6th grade I started doing a military diet (ik ik how bad it is for you but it was very popular with “noticeable” results). I was consistent with it and actually lost 3 pounds, but not realizing that this was all water weight. I kept doing this military diet on and off up until 7th grade when I noticed that I wasn’t losing or gaining weight. I had lost all hope of losing weight and went into a “oh well who cares” phase and started binge eating. So, of course I gained a lot of weight. Then in 9th grade I learned about the beauty of counting calories. I thought this would be the fix to all my problems and I could eat anything I wanted as long as I tracked it and kept my calories under 1200 (ik ik this is not recommended). I kept this going up until 11th grade till I just stopped losing weight again and went back into a binge eating phase. Over those past years I have tried a good amount of diets/fast such as the water fast, watermelon diet, and keto. Nothing worked, and whenever I brought up my concerns to my pediatrician he would always say it’s all normal since you are growing (bless him). However, I wish he had started some type of intervention that wouldn’t lead me to binge eating every couple of months when I stop seeing weight loss. This cycle haunts me till this day and I honestly haven’t found a way to break it. So, when I was listening to the Maintenance Phase podcast I listened to the Ozempic topic and I was intrigued with this type of solution because it seemed like an easy fix but as I listened to the podcast more, I learned how bad it was for us.
Unruly Bodies 
😦 as a fat girl i feel your pain and i’m sorry you’ve had to experience such things. I think it’s really unfair what society does to little girls especially those who are overweight and more prone to being victims of diet culture. It’s not fun being the center of the joke or at least feeling like you are. I also listened to that episode of maintenance phase because i know how much this diabetes medication is advertised as weight loss medicine, but i wasn’t aware of how bad the side effects really are! i wish more people were aware but i wish more that the world was nicer to fat people so that we wouldn’t feel the need to be at war with ourselves.
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I had that same experience in 5th grade when I saw I weighed over 100 pounds. I remember one of my closest friends at the time chuckled and said “whoa” and I remember not understanding why he reacted that way to my weight. As a kid, I never thought about my weight until then. It really goes to show how we live in a society where parents tell their kids to watch their weight and then they spread that with other kids. Kids should not be reminded of their weight, I’m sorry you had to experience that so much.