So recently, my partner of almost two years ended things with me but said they still wanted to be friends. They said that they no longer had romantic feelings for me but rather felt as if our dynamic was more like good friends. Why don’t you just literally rip my heart out of my chest instead? I am polyamorous but they were my longest partner. I started to feel them drifting away slowly but I decided to not prod them about it in fear of what the answer could have been, but I guess I got the answer either way…. Some of my friends don’t understand why I am upset about losing a partner because “You have other partners” but that isn’t how things work, it still hurts to lose someone in any capacity of the word. Also, the relationship was long distance with them living in California and me being in Maryland. It was an online relationship but we would snapchat every day and video chat every so often when our schedules would allow it.

On a different note, my newest partner (who is local yay) told me that they were talking to someone named Mae and I asked what they looked like because I dated a person named Mae a few months ago. Lo and behold it was my EX. I told them I wasn’t comfortable about them talking but my partner said they have been talking since November 3rd and that they really like each other and want to see where things go… I don’t like it at all…. not one bit, but i don’t want to lose my partner either so i just told them to do whatever they want and just don’t tell me. I just wish I didn’t know ANYTHING. Should I have broken up with them because they didn’t really respect my wishes or am i being selfish?