The internet is truly one of the best/ worst inventions created in this century. You get to see so many things you wouldn’t see under normal circumstances and get to make so many sociological observations that you wouldn’t normally see. The fallout of the recent election specifically allowed me to observe so many different opinions and and really get a good measure on the way our society is set up. What it confirmed to me as Black person of color is that we really aren’t as protected as thought. Black people have a ton of intersectional issues but despite that at least we agreed that we didn’t want a racists bigot in office. Despite that very simple understanding the turnout was not as expected and it just confirmed to me that the rest of society is clearly only performatively liberal or so hyper individualistic that they are willing to compromise others rights for presumably “less” taxes and a “better” economy. Another thing it showed me is how we are so willing to disregard black and trans bodies. Two readings that stuck out to me for this section was the readings on how Black and Trans Bodies are treated in sports. For decades black bodies have be exploited in all forms entertainment. The article talks about the effect that sports like boxing and basketball have for young black men. A reading for an earlier section also talked about the history of minstrel entertainment and how black people were taking advantage of for the purpose of mockery entertainment. And even now in todays society we see white people continue to make a mockery of black people in all sectors of entertainment. They hypersexualize black women in entertainment , they hypermasculine black women in sports. They portray black men as inhuman hypermasculine brute savages that need to be “humbled” or broke in. I believe that’s what spectacles like the Jake Paul vs Mike Tyson fight were supposed to achieve. After the fight the narrative became this weird mockery of mike tyson and his legacy. People used that fight to justify their bigoted vitriol towards black people saying things that implied that black people were never on the same level as them reinforcing this white supremacists mindset that was already being fed to them by trump and other red pill creators. People have spent years on social media canceling other creators for being ” antiblack” and “not inclusive” enough only to now start posting antiblack propaganda by reposting their chosen politicians who continue to harm the very communities they’ve defend in the past. This new wave of hypocrisy is not only seen towards black people but also also towards people. Social media has (at least my side) has shown incredible support towards trans people and trans creators. With support towards creators like Dylan Mulvaney, it really seemed like for a moment people were starting to become more educated about trans people and why trans rights are important but in the real world the opposite was occurring. Harmful legislation was being passed all across the nation and no one was taking it seriously except trans people. All these things have now spiraled into this volatile state we live in today I hope people who are conscious continue to stay that way and I hope the people aren’t get educated.
Month: December 2024
My Recent Realization
I moved to Ethiopia when I was six years old and I loved the experiences I had over the 3 years that I lived there. I got to meet many of my family members that I would have never known if I never moved there and am so grateful for that. But I am especially thankful for also learning about my culture and heritage. Throughout the time that I lived there, I was able to experience how holidays are celebrated, the language, traditions, and dances. In Ethiopia, a common traditional dance is eskista and it was the first dance I learned as a kid. The best memory I ever had of dancing was when my family and I would go and visit my grandmother who lived way out of the city. Although we would always be tired by the time we would arrive at her place we would settle down and immediately start talking and catching up. Then before we went to bed we would do a dancing competition about who could do eskita the best and my great grandma would give everyone some money š¤£.
Continue readingEchoes of Creation: A Journey to Acceptance
Above the village of Chamounix, where mountains touch the sky, I pen these words to you, Victor, with a heavy sigh. In your quest for creation, you sought to defy fate, But in your wake, you left a being to contemplate.
Performing “transgender rag”, I dance to my own tune, In a world that often judges, beneath the silver moon. Like your creation, I seek acceptance, a place to call my own, In the shadows of society, where seeds of doubt are sown.
Victor, do you see the pain you’ve caused, the tears that have been shed? In your pursuit of greatness, you forgot the living dead. Your creation, a reflection of your own inner strife, A mirror to your soul, a testament to life.
I too have felt the sting of isolation, the ache of being alone, In a world that often judges, where compassion is unknown. But unlike your creation, I choose to rise above, To seek out understanding, to find a place of love.
Victor, let this be a lesson, a message from the heart, That in our quest for knowledge, we must not tear apart The bonds that make us human, the ties that bind us near, For in the end, it’s love and kindness that conquer all our fear.

-santana A ;|
Lessons From My Past
I first learned about the LGBTQIA+ community in sixth grade, though the term was different then and I didn’t understand what it meant. There was a classmate who had come out as transgender, and it just became a topic of conversation with everyone. Some kids just didn’t seem to take it seriously, but I do remember feeling curious and unsure how to react. I had never heard the term “transgender” before, and I didn’t know what it meant to transition. One day during lunch, that classmate explained to a small group of us what being transgender meant and why it was so important for them to live as their true self. It was the first time I realized not everyone’s experience with gender fit into the categories I had been taught. Looking back, Iām grateful for that moment because it challenged me to think differently at such a young age. Growing up, I started reading more about the community and how to be respectful or supportive. It was impactful to hear someone speak so openly about their struggles, especially at an age when so many of us were just trying to understand ourselves. It taught me to listen to other people’s experiences and to respect their identities. That experience shifted my mind to be more open to empathy and to have more curiosity that should continue to work on things like the way I approach the world today.
illness.


Throughout the recent readings in this class, we learned a lot about the underrepresentation in support for disabled individuals and sick individuals. I truly want to see an impact on the support system we can provide for these individuals. They shouldn’t have to find a way around their daily living needs; they should have support groups that can give them the proper support they need.
The connection I made over these past weeks between this underrepresentation and the topic of bodies is that our generation has always been quick to judge and never accounts for those who actively struggle to lose weight. Let alone, bodies should not weigh or look a certain way. But have you ever thought that the same people making arrogant jokes about bodies have never considered that the individual could be suffering from a terminal illness or even a condition that prevents them from being able to normally lose weight? The reason I brought this up was because recently on TikTok, a popular influencer was receiving a lot of hate for losing weight so fast. She was accused of either being a part of DV or having an eating disorder. No one gave her the benefit of the doubt that she could be suffering from an illness. After she had reached her lowest, she announced to everyone that she was diagnosed with cancer. The radiation therapies, treatments, and medicine caused rapid weight loss. After the announcement, the whole internet had switched up the comments made about her. Why should someone have to physically announce or tell anyone what illness is causing changes in their body? Why are we so quick to judge? I truly hope society can change and instead be a support system, whether it’s a popular influencer or an average person.
Social media should not be a space for you to judge others, whether you know them personally or they are influencers. It does not give you the power or the right to do so. We never know if a comment left by you can emotionally affect someone’s life permanently. Always think twice before making a snarky comment.
to my mind
dear,
it’s been so long since iāve last written to you.
have you missed me? iāve missed you. terribly, terribly so. i look in our bathroom mirror (the one that you would let your body draw smiley faces on when the glass fogged from a too-hot shower, remember?) and see you again. we share the same eye-bags and bright, big eyes that are hard to miss. i think that is one of my favorite things about you two.
i wish i could give you a hug right now.
Continue readingJust us
Ok im pretty self confident. But whenever someone glances at my body my mind gets to racing. I just came back from the mall and of course people looked at me. Girls and guys but especially when guys look at me Im thinking to myself are they going āoh she got a nice body for a slim black girlā ( cuz black women are expected to be thick) are they looking at my arms and going theyāre so tiny. Are they picturing me as athletic and active. Are they saying my strides are so graceful .Or just a lazy bum that happens to be slim. I wish I could look at myself and the way it moves from outside my body. What would I think about my bodies look and movement if I was an outsider looking in. Like my conscious floats out and I can see. Itās kinda hard to just observe the body when youāre out in public. I canāt just stand in the middle and watch. But honestly not just me, I wish I could just see in a spiritual way the way we mammals dance through life.
Continue readingthe story on my skin
my first tattoo was a tiger. trigger warning: self-harm, SA
placed on my hip,
sized just a bit
too small for anyone else to see
unless they were seeing all of me anyway.
i got him because they symbolize
fearlessness.
and i hoped his courage would come to me
from seeing his bold inked form every day,
reminding me of my power.
(it works some days)
my second one was a rose.
they stand for love,
for my heart truly grows
when i think of the adolescent girl
who used to take a blade and hold
the tip to her own flesh to show
the world the hole inside her soul
consuming her wide, consuming her whole.
(but people just think it’s pretty; i don’t tell them i put the rose over my healed scars to remind me to never forget to love myself again)
tattoo number three came suddenly to me
when i heard medusa’s story (a rendition).
the snakes were not to punish her more,
but guard her from more pain and gore.
they helped her spin an evil lore
where twisted forms and forked tongues
turned man and monster into stones
that served as everlasting tombs.
(when i heard this version of her story i cried and cried. she is not bitter and broken, she is bold even when she was burned.)
my lotus.
there is a tale of this flower
growing from muck,
through strife and strain
yet never staying stuck;
yearning to feel the warmth of day.
the lotus grows through greatest pain,
through scum and water in hopes to attain
a safe space to bloom and lay
its petals, arrayed in the dawning sun.
(if you’re here today, i’m proud of you. i hope you’ve found your safe space to bloom. don’t ever give up; don’t let the pain in this world make you forget there’s things worth living for. you are worth living for.)
The origin of Belly Dancing
When people think of belly dancing, they often picture a woman in an ornate bra and low-waisted skirt, moving sensually in a way that seems designed to cater to the male gaze. But this image is a relatively modern phenomenon. Traditionally, belly dancing was about cultural celebrationāa communal experience where people came together to mark joyous occasions, like weddings, or simply to enjoy the act of moving and connecting. It wasnāt about performing for an audience, let alone for men, but about expressing joy, vitality, and a deep connection to life through movement.
This view resonates with Kimerer LaMotheās ideas in As the Earth Dances: A Philosophy of Bodily Becoming. LaMothe sees the body as an active, creative force that helps us connect with ourselves, with others, and with the rhythms of the world around us. In its original form, belly dancing captures this beautifully; itās a form of movement that isnāt about external validation or objectification but about celebrating the bodyās ability to tell stories, build community, and honor lifeās cycles. Like the dances LaMothe describes, belly dancing is rooted in creativity, joy, and shared connection, reminding us that movement is as much about what we feel as it is about what others see.

Not Your Poster Child
CONTENT WARNING: THIS POST CONTAINS DETAIED DESCRIPTIONS OF INTERNALIZED TRANSPHOBIA & INTENTIONAL MISGENDERING
āTranssexual embodiment, like the embodiment of the monster, places its subject in an unassimilable, antagonistic, queer relationship to a Nature in which it must nevertheless exist.ā ā Susan Stryker
A human is born
A life has begun
Is it a boy or a girl?
You must pick one
āItās a girl!ā they exclaim,
Teeming with joy.
But what if that human
Is really a boy?
āSit like a ladyā they say,
Your knees must touch;
āJust put on the dressā they said,
āStop making a fuss.ā
Tomboy! Tomboy! Tomboy!
Itās all she hears.
Losing her femininity
Is something she fears.
Fear of losing the attention,
The praise and the love,
So she puts on clothes
That fit her like a glove.
She grows her hair out
Year after year,
Because deep inside her
Is the fear
That one day theyāll call her
A tomboy again,
And sheāll lose her femininity
Before she really can
Grapple with the fact
That sheās not a girl,
And that this gender faƧade
Makes her want to hurl.
Until age fifteen,
She puts on an act,
Until she knows
For a fact
That this act
No longer works.
Inside her,
This feeling lurks.
But he knows his body
Will never conform
To social ideals
And so heās torn.
Does he put in the effort
To be seen?
(And what does that
Even mean?)
It means he struggles
Day in and out,
And his mind
Is filled with doubt.
Transness is beautiful,
Transness is great;
But as a trans man,
Iām filled with hate.
Iām tired of keeping quiet
With nowhere to speak up,
Iāve hereby decided
I donāt give a fuck.
Political correctness
Gets you nowhere in life;
Iām not a poster child,
I donāt determine whatās right.
Iām allowed to be human,
Iām allowed to make mistakes.
Iām now living my life,
And I refuse to wait.



